How Confidence is Killing Me

Stop Over-Analyzing I’ve often been told, “Laurence! Stop over analyzing everything.” “You need to learn to go with the flow.” While over analyzing may not be a good thing, I’ve come to realize, with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, that my natural disposition to analyze deeply is a...

Fill My Cup

Life without God is excruciating. It’s absolutely horrible. Sure, there is the bit about what happens to us after we die but I’m not talking about that part. I’m talking about our life now. You start with this immense hole to fill and the world tells you how to...

Insert God Here

There are times in life when I get triggered; I received hurt, rejection, “I am not enough,” “I am a mistake.” In these moments, I see how easily I distance myself from you, Lord. I see how my shame causes me to hide. It’s in those moments, that I...

My Teacher is Divine

And without faith it is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who diligently seek him. Hebrews 11:6 For years now I’ve been starving for everything God related. I wanted to read every book, go to...

FYI I Might Be Ugly for a While

There is a rumbling that is taking place in my heart concerning my relationships with others. It started at the end of 2018 during a class based on the book Experiencing the Father’s Embrace by Jack Frost. In that class, our instructor, Pastor Kay, taught me to recognize the...

Surrender? I’m Scared!

The Lord is really realigning some things for me as it pertains to my relationships with others. Heads up for anyone that is seeking closeness to God, the pursuit of the Lord will jack up your relationships to others as you know it and it will be an uncomfortable...

Who is the Real Me?

Moving into the kingdom of God, under his rule is the most amazing move I’ve ever made. What an exciting journey!! AND it’s a journey not without its challenges. Reorganizing my life within the context of this kingdom takes time and work. I’m learning a whole new culture while...

How Did I Miss It?

The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure hidden in plain sight. People go about their lives walking near it, walking on it, around it and under it. But oh, for those of us fortunate enough to by the Grace of God, walk through it, in it, with an...

Friction in my Residence

The Lord is preparing my heart. This I know is true. I feel chosen, special, appointed. While yet still in training, in preparation for servanthood to my King, I know who I am and where I’m going. The picture is still a little blurry, but I know enough to...